marriage though she had two fine sons. She just does not like men, yet dresses like one as closely as she can. The retired R.N. cousin phoned me one day to say that she had invited a gentleman who is a mutual friend to dinner at her house and asked if I would come too so as to make it respectable for her. I consented provided I could come as Joan and try to pass even though he knew me. I did so and the entire evening was a success. We had long conversations on numerous subjects. When he asked me what I did for a living I told him that I was self employed as a "ghost writer." He never did catch on and my cousin says that he sometimes asks about that tall Mrs. Miller. Even with that name he still did not catch on. My cousin and I even told him that we were distant cousins!

While I still have the space on this page I wish to add something that should have been ahead of the previous paragraph about my cousin who wears pants all the time. She called me shocking, disgusting and disgraceful! I countered the with the question as to why the same adjectives were not app- licable to herself, since she was wearing pants and other mascu- line styled attire, why was it so disgraceful for me to wear what I like and not for her to do the same. She said, "That's entirely different. You're a man and men are not supposed to wear women's clothes, it's illegal and immoral and just disgusting for a man to wear dresses, high heels and long hair and makeup. It means you are a homosexual and that is disgusting!" This to a man who had been mar- ried happily to an understanding wife 30 years to her death and had fathered three children by her and then re-married to date 14 years to another outstand- ingly intelligent (M.D.) wife who also happily tolerates him! I

told her that in my opinion she was upset for at least two reasons. First, I made a much better looking woman than she and she could obviously see that. That of course made her angry and was intended to. Second, In spite of her great preoccup- ation with women's liberation she still held on to the belief that women should have a monopoly of the wearing of beautiful clothes and the prive- ledge of making themselves physically attractive and beauti- ful and that since she believed that a man who showed any feminine characteristics disgraces himself because he is supposed to be above such things. In other words she still clings to the old belief that males are superior to females and therefore if a male shows any femininity he degrades himself. I asked her if she really believed that and she responded by calling me a male chauvinist, by what reason- ing I don't know. I explained to her that I do not believe in all that male superiority stuff and believe that I am complementing women by wanting to imitate them. I explained that the only way I can wear her clothes is to disguise myself as a woman and that I find it to be very pleasurable and relaxing, prob- ably the same as she finds it comfortable in her way to wear masculine clothes, which she can do without criticism. In fact women closely imitate mens' clothing and it is considered smart whereas if a man should be seen merely using a woman's colored umbrella in a downpour, or letting his fingernails grow more than a sixteenth of an inch long he would be under suspicion. I can clearly remember when men first started wearing wrist watches and low cut shoes during World War I and were laughed at for it. Men were supposed to carry big watches with a chain, smoke cigars and wear high shoes with a loop in the back for pulling them on.

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Before WW-I cigarettes were the feminine couterpart of cigars and were for women when first introduced, and only "fallen" women at that. Even now men are required to wear high col- lared shirts, neckties, a jacket and even a vest even in the hot- test weather in order to be admitted to certain places. The sheriff right here in our own county arrested hundreds of boys and young men and charged them with vagrancy or disor- derly conduct because of the length of their hair, took them to the county jail and cut their hair with clippers, until finally stopped by the courts. I told her that BOTH men AND women need liberation. She has been very pleasant to me ever since and at Christmas gave me a very nice present of a set of scented soaps. For quite a number of years, she was the chief of the window trimming department in the city's largest department store, and she made up beautiful displays of women's clothes. The store succumbed to the competition of the out-of- town shopping malls. I would not be surprised if sometime she should give me a really feminine present present such as a

dress! And with that back- ground, she will not adorn her- self with anything feminine, from head to heels, except makeup and earrings and hair pulled back tightly.

Recently I have become acquainted with Eileen, NY-11- J, and Joan, NY-9-F, and have visited at their homes and they at mine. Eileen's spouse is cer- tainly Class A. Edith and I visited them one evening (I as Felicity/Joan) and had a very interesting evening. Eileen came to visit us alone (the spouse had to stay home with their two youngsters) and we noticed she was wearing a coat too small and not warm enough for the cold weather here. Later, I thought about it and phoned to offer a new coat of